Clay Pots & Wooden Spoons

I’m having second thoughts. I know I wanted to do this but suddenly I’m having doubts. Maybe its just a phase. Hopefully it is. I don’t want to invest myself emotionally and mentally in this task if I’ll leave it soon. Maybe I’m just experiencing a bit of shock since it has been a long time since I’ve been in a place where I am surrounded by a lot of people and where I need to spend time with people offline. I am having fun because I am able to spend time not thinking about nothing, but I am also a bit sad because I don’t have much quiet time as before.

Les also mentioned that she might leave soon and that bothers me a lot. I’m not clingy but I really don’t know how I’ll be if she leaves me there by myself. I’m old enough to stand on my own but I prefer having people close to my heart with me wherever I go. If she leaves, half of me would want to stop as well. This is the only time I’ve been able to see my bestfriend daily after a long long time. It would just be weird not seeing her that much again. Although I am a bit irked that she won’t be coming with me to the WordCamp tomorrow, I understand her situation. I admit even I had second thoughts going to the WordCamp. I promised myself before I entered TT that no matter what I will attend the WordCamp, so I will come to the event. I might be alone in going there but who knows, I might meet a few people who’ll become my friends before we leave the event.