I’ve been trying to read back on he past lessons that were taught back when I was still in school and at the moment I am trying to understand corporate performance management again. Its been a long time sine I’ve been in school so its hard for me to read anything related to my course. I do miss school but I don’t know. It seems everytime I go back, something holds me back. I just wish I can finally finish it. Its the only thing that’s holding me back in life. If only I can turn back time…sigh. I’m not in a happy mode. This past week has been bad. Really bad. I just don’t know anything anymore.
Sad thoughts about school and life.
you’re not happy. that’s just it. ba’t ayaw mo magshift na lang into something that you are really interested in like baking, di ba? don’t worry. hindi ka nag iisa sa ganyan. i was like that also back in my college years lalo na when i didn’t even know what course to take up. pumasok lang ako ng lasal na tinanong ko lang nanay ko kung ano ang magandang course. it’s a good thing that when i shifted to marketing i surprisingly enjoyed it pero deep down i know the corporate ladder is really too gloomy to climb for me.
just don’t be too harsh to yourself. you’re finding yourself. that’s why medyo feeling mo hindi mo alam kung ano talaga ang gusto mong mangyari sa buhay mo. good luck, dear, and just continue praying.
alam mo ngayon lang akong naglakas loob na basahin yun whole comment mo. xD sa sitwasyon ngaun mahirap na mag-shift kasi 6 subjects na lang talaga ako, tapos ilang term nako leave, balik, leave, balik, leave balik, awol, awol. kung sina mommy at daddy lang ang sumasagot sa tuition ko madali sana, kaso mas mahirap pag kamag-anak yun sumasagot in this case tita ko. hay, it makes me feel kinda crappy kasi parang i failed them. sana lang i had the guts back then na sabihin na gusto ko culinary arts or hrm kahit mas mahal yun. ngaun lang kasi i feel so trapped kasi antagal ko ng hindi maka-graduate. i know i can get through this, pero minsan di ko talaga maiwasan ma-depress kasi parang kahit anong gawin ko in the present bumabalik ulit what happened in the past. salamat sa comment mo ah.
6 subjects na lang?hmmm… i guess the best thing to do is to finish it na lang. don’t think that you have failed them. at least now you know that it’s not for you and don’t blame yourself for not having the guts to tell them what you want before. grabe nakikita ko yung self ko sayo dati. buti ka nga you know that you want to bake. dati pagtinatanong ako ng kuya kuya ko dyan sa lasal kung ano ang gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko, sagot ko lang ay isang malakas na iyak.
past has its way always in catching up with the present. be patient in dealing with it lang. yup, madaling sabihin pero sobrang hirap gawin pero ganun talaga. lakasan mo lang ang loob mo parati. isipin mo na lang na naniniwala ang magulang mo sayo pati ang mga friends mo everytime na nagcecreep in ang past.
feeling sad is a big part of it kasi nga you are not happy about what you are going through. kaya it’s okay. i think your tita understands you rin kasi hindi yan magpapatuloy magbigay sustento kung nagagalit sya sayo. feeling ko nga you are being too hard to yourself. so keep on praying. i will too for you.
I know what will cheer you up-pure vanilla! Hi Nika, I hopped on over from your comment on my blog. Send me an email with your snail mail addie. Who knows, I just might find a way to send you some pure vanillove!
*shriek* + *silly dance*
Pure Vanilla?! *squeal*
Will email you. *squeal*
Sorry, baking ingredients make me a blabbering fool. *dances*