Longing for silence, amidst the noise of my own thoughts.

August 22, 2007 · Filed Under Random Ramblings

I have a thought problem. A lot of times I can’t have quiet times even when I am by myself because my head is filled with a whole bunch of thoughts, and its like being on a computer when you’re multi-tasking. Imagine your lying comfortably on your bed at night, with the cool breeze gently soothing and comforting you, inviting you to just let go of everything, to just be there, doing nothing, thinking of nothing. Just lost in your senses and the beauty of the sky and stars outside your window. But then, thoughts come rushing to you. Worries over trivial matters, bills to be paid, responsibilities to attend to, tasks to be finished, goals to be realized. Sometimes, its just too much.

I don’t want my mind to become dull, so I do understand that thinking and exercising my brain is needed, but sometimes I just want to be totally zoned out. You know just staring at the sky thinking of nothing, and just having my mind blacked out of thought. It sounds weird but I long for it at times. Its just, sometimes it can be quite tiring hearing yourself think especially when you do it all the time when you’re awake.

I am not interested in taking anything that would induce that so don’t worry. Lol. I prefer everything to be natural.

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