Woke up today late again as usual, since I stay up till its five in the morning on the net just surfing around, shrugging of the blues. So its all rainy and really cold, which is quite pleasant. I love it when it rains. So I went and turned the tv on and switched the channel to the Lifestyle network. Its one of my favorite channels, especially when those about vacations and wonderful places which I’ve never been to are on. A few hours later it hits me. THAT is what I want. I want to do that kind of work, the one where you go out on a journey, traveling to places you’ve never been too and just enjoy it and then share it with everyone.
I’ve been living for 22 years and I’ve only been to a few places here in my country. I want to see what my country has to offer and why other nationalities love visiting it. Its quite saddening to think that foreigners know more about the great places in my country than I do. I’ve been stuck at home and in my comfort zone that I’ve forgotten that I needed to get out to find myself and be happy. It is scary to think about it since I’m used to having people I know around me, and the idea of going around my country either alone or with people I just met is just plain crazy, but its what I want and need. I need to put back the zest in my life and for once stop thinking about everything. How others would think, how I can please them and all the I could haves. I want to do this for myself because I know only after doing so can I be whole. That only after I go on that journey will I be able to find the answers to my questions, and be able to fully reflect on what my life means and what my purpose is.
I need a time of solitude for my heart, my mind and my soul.
So now that I know that, I’m over step one I suppose and that’s a start right? Now I need to figure out how to do that which is the hard part. But I am promising myself that I will find a way. I do my best to fulfill my promises to other people, its time I fulfill my promises to myself.
